Being a fashion blogger, a New Yorker, and a full time employee there is but so much time to truly invest in your next project, or your vacation, or even your loved ones. But one thing I have been learning more and more is the importance of making time. Obviously making time for all the things already stated but we must never forget to time for ourselves but more importantly our dreams. And with that I have learned my biggest investment has to go to myself.
As I am getting closer to mid 30's [oye] and I watch my peers around me achieve their long time dreams and I take a second to look at where I am headed. I don't do this to make a comparison as I know that is possibly the worst thing that you can do to your self esteem. But I do it to check myself and remind myself of how much work I still need to put in. I know I want to make more of an impact on fashion with the idea of what the "perfect size" is, yet still getting into acting and showing my face on any and every screen that would give me the chance, and all the while helping people grow and learn from their past in any way possible.
So yes I have a bit of a list but I am completely ok with working towards getting to that level. I am ok with putting in the extra hours and spending the money needed towards my crafts. So while everyone is partying it up and getting settled, I am learning to pull back and delve more into my craft. I have always been a bit of a hermit and a homebody but I am making an early new year's resolution to step out more for things that are going to help me with my dreams.
I think one of the easiest things to do is to be able to support and be there for a friend. However what can be the hardest and most difficult thing to do is to be able to support and be there for yourself. For the past month or so, I have been looking at where my shortcomings have been. Looking at what I have not been doing to get where I need to be. I think the thing that sparked this moment the most was on the "Started from the Bottom, yet we still here" podcast from Fabi and Nati. I realized while I have met some amazing people and they have touched my life in some amazing ways. I want to be able to do that for other people and still do that for myself. So how the hell am I supposed to?
"Get comfortable being uncomfortable". A statement I was never fully ok with but I am slowly learning to grasp that ideal. What that means for me is giving up on the idea of a steady schedule, paycheck, and life balance. While it is the BIGGEST fear I could possibly have because I like to live comfortably, and I would be setting myself for the unknown. So I am using my time wisely to prepare for that day, and I have spoken to the universe and set a date for March 1st. On this day I will place more faith in god and the universe and see where the cards may fall. I will make a separate post of what that will mean when it comes...BUT I AM SCARED SHITLESS AND EXCITED AS HELL!
So with the revelations and all the ramblings I have gone on about, I say all of this to say, make the time for yourself and your dreams so you are able to, FUCK SHIT UP! No one can stop you from getting to your highest potential than you. [Let that sink in]
So I am making the time to do it for myself!